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last 3 days every day work at factory…so sad lor..fren all kana sack cos of stupid reason….but i gt bring my sis n her fren in to work also….so today only heng boon, my sis, my sis fren n me lor…but ok la…we also gt talk ma…very funny lor…keep laughing sia….like mad like this…lol…den after tat at night meet junze n yong xiang go eat dinner…their fren also gt come n 1 malay guy noe from factory de..we go tampines eat long john…yesterday we also go eat…yesterday go seng kang….wif val..also noe from factory de…can say noe from the same agrent de la..lol…yesterday after eat we chit chat until 12.45am den go home ar…siao ar…den today so tired…lol…but chat a lot la…like mad de la…lol..oh ya…guys..i haven say finish lei….i say heng boon giv me de first impression is like kids like this rite but he is mature….rite..now talk abt junze he ar…giv me de first impression is talkative lor..lol..very funny la..ok la…same as me…talkative de..lol…wont anti scoial de lor…he is talking rubbish some more lor…..haha..no la…jk la…lol…is lame wif us la…lol…n at first only have his Hp no don have heng boon de ma..the way he sms hoh..can say very caring la…no bad ar…can go jio cara le..lol..lol….jia you…lol..den val ar…first time see her like ah lian like this..but after chatting wif her ok lor….no ah lian ar…maybe the way she talk look like only la..but she is not la…keeping scolding here n there de lor…lol…lame de lor..lol….FREN FOREVER MAN!!!!

sry to all my fren if i have no time to meet u all…now a days really busy working ar….sry sry…wan to ask me out pls let me noe 1 week b4…den i will can n plan n take off…….thank you….sorry sorry…..

miss him….super miss him…only when i am wif my fren chit chat n laught…i wont think so much…other den tat time i am always thinking of him…haiz…..n also when i am tired…lei on bed jiu sleep le….haiz…

today whole day at home…no need to work ma..they nv call us go work….very sian at home lei…make me anyhow think…haiz…i super super miss him lei….tell me wat can i do?make myself busy?? i try le…i gt 2 job now..but not every day need to work lei…haiz…even if i busy i also will think of him…tat time i working at the factory i thinking of him while i work lei….i try to be happy le..but i feel all is fake de…haiz….jus now…quarrel wif my bro…abt my com de thing la…i sms him tell him…he gt reply n console me….feel so happy…but……………………….aiya..donno lei…donno how to tell u all my feeling also….read his last time de blog…abt me de..so miss tat time…haiz…..how i wish i am doremon..den i can go back to the past…haiz….

today go watch stomp the yard at the cathay wif dear n michelle…den after tat go eat pizza hut…den walk walk a while jiu go home le…guess wat…i take train to raffles ma….den i saw mei ting they all…my sec fren…den take train together lor..gt talk a little bit nia la…

i very very miss him….when i walking home alone….i keep thinking of him until i cry lei…haiz….i super super miss him….wan to talk him but donno wat to say…haiz…i wan to see him lei…..

i think i write so much also donno he can see a not…cos my fren tell me my blog of problem..cannot load lei….i myself load also very long lor..donno wat wrong….haiz…

today working at factory….very tired ar…stand until my leg so pain..but today not much thing to do lei…den tml n wed i off….wed is i take off de…tues is they ask us not to go de..lol…but also gd la…can rest….next week i gt 3 days need to go print club work le…lol….tired man….sry my fren…i can’t meet u all on the 1st april…i have to work….sry to all my fren who ask me out…i think i this few month will be very very busy le….i gt time i will meet u all de….sry sry….

love him, miss him very much….haiz….

today no work….the ppl there say we no need to go….only for this sat n sun nia…next week de i donno…we tired lei…work 12 hours de…den today i sleep until i song ar….i sleep in 2pm den wake up lei…too tired le…yesterday sleep very early but still very tired..yesterday was my 1 night tat i can sleep very well…no dream..sleep all the way….lol..like pig like tat…hehe…rest of the day i think i will be very busy le…cos i gt any job le…tat mean i gt 2 job now….anyway is print club la…i use to work de…they now need part time ask me can i work…i tell them ok…tat one my fav job lei…so if they need me den i will tell the factory there i cannot work lor…lol..

now actually is playing maple de…wan to lvl le..but lazy to play le…den the michelle ask me com msn chat wif her..so i come out lor…now i feel like sleep again lei…head a bit pain le….

i think i have to work more let myself tired den wont think so much den will have a gd sleep…lol…also to earn more money….also find thing to do la…don slack at hm do nth…also sian de..lol…

today first day go factory work..very tired ar..need to reach kallang at 7.30am den i 5.45am have to wake up n prepare le..but yesterday cannot sleep lei…2 plus 3 den sleep lor..sleep 2 plus hours only den have to go work le…but ok la…very fun…..first time work at factory tat y think is fun…but cut myself a lot of time..lol…nth much also la…

when i go the way home..the sad part come..i sms him…ask him sth…i don wish to say here….jus very sad…to wat he reply me…haiz….sob..i cannot control my tear…den i jus cry in bus lei..i think nobody see ba….haiz….i will wait…I WILL….until i cannot wait..i mean it…..

to HIM….i love u…really love…i understand wat u say in sms..but really not easy….i already deeply in love wif u le…i donno how to stop le…hope u will giv me a chance…..i noe wat i hope wont happened but i still wan to hope….

to some one…i don wan to hurt u…but i have to say…i don wan ppl misunderstanding…exspecially the person i love….u noe i VERY VERY LOVE ‘TAT PERSON’….pls don have any hope..u will be disappointed de..i only treat u ask MY FREN…or maybe my listener…but i don wan u to tell him anything tat can misunderstanding me n u…i hear from someone..u tell him sth tat will make him misunderstanding or wat la…i jus don like…pls…okok…maybe also my fault to ask u help doing sth…but i think u help me de is over le….i am very thankful…but is enough le…thank you for wat u have done for me…really thank you..but I REALLY LOVE HIM…I WONT FALL IN LOVE WIF ANYONE AT THIS MOEMENT OF TIME DE…….sorry very very sorry to say all this to hurt u…but i really hope u can understand….again…very very sorry….very very sorry….

hmm…..here i come again…hmmm……………………………………………………..feel like asking him out to study tml…but i don dare lei…haiz…go study??only we 2 ar???can ma?? i wan la…but donno wat he is thinking lei….i gt sms him wish him gd luck…he gt wish me back…but i don dare to ask him..haiz…how how how how????i think better don ask la hoh???even if he say ok…but only we 2 also pei sei de ma…ar………………………………………..fan ar…i wan but don dare…haiz…..

today morning went to dear house n slack until time up go my fren de wedding…is a malay…first time attent lei…hmm…actually not my fren la..is one of the bossini de incharge…last time i work at bossini ma..so noe her…shirley also noe her de…den at around 1pm like tat we jiu go take bus to huogang..cos her wedding is at there…reach there..the groom haven reach…wait a while jiu reach le…hmm..i don say all la…jus comment la..otherwise my blog will be super long again…gt ppl complain sian liao..lol….malay wedding very nice lei…but like a lot of rule to follow…den they very busy like tat..no time to talk to us lei..lol…den we sit there eat some thing..talk a while jiu go le..actually they plan to go some where but i meeting my fren ma…so cannot…den in the end all go home..some go meet fren also..den i take 62 wif shilrey n zhuang li go puggol den i change train to city hall to meet my fren wai peng, yong jie n wee meng….wee meng wan to go IT fair today ma…when i reach only wai pneg n yong jie…wee meng meet us later..so when i meet them..we all 3 very hungry le….so go see wat to eat..den the yong jie don wan to eat any fast food..den i don wan to eat food court de…so we go find sth else..den walk walk walk…see sth not bad…so we go eat..the name of the shop is MOF..at marine square de…not bad la…after eating wee meng jiu reach le..so we go IT fair lor…a lot of ppl ar…but we only go a while nia..cos wee meng wan to buy de laptop no more stock le..den he don wan other brand de..so we jiu go other place lor….we go up cos wai peng wan to buy memory card…den saw 1 shop sell very cheap..wan to go buy but have to q…sian lor…the q super long lei…but still gt q la…while q’ing yong jie say he also wan to buy for his HP de memory card…den also see very cheap so q wif wai peng lor..q for around 1 hours plus…finally buy le..stand until my leg very pain lor…lol..den after tat we jiu go back marine square cos wee meng hungry wan to eat…eat le we jiu go home le…nth much also la….

saw his nick le…donno wat it mean…wonder wat it mean??haiz….sth bothering him???anyway…gd luck for ur exam tml….

already 2.35am..still can’t sleep…haiz..thinking of him again….wish to talk to him…tell him how i feel..but i don dare…i donno how to say…..i cry again le…i miss him very much…wat can i do so tat we can go back to the past…i noe he n serene is buddy…but i donno y i very scared he will fall for her again…really very scared…jason..some time i feel the love from u..some time no…don hide it can??pls..pls….if have jus show..if no den i have nth to say…..god..teach me wat to do den i can be together wif the person i love??? don take away the hope u giv me can…pls….

DEEPLY IN LOVE WIF HIM………………………………………….

today go out wif my gd fren..[Zhen lin]..we go play pool today..at lucky plaza…but b4 meeting him..i go tampines mall wif mei mei..to buy card, present n birthday cake for my mum..today my mum birthday ma…after buying we go eat long john…from yesterday i until today lei…n i eat wif mei mei is already 2.30pm le..lol…but still can’t finish the food..lol..we talk a lot sia..so many thing to talk like "sun ba" like tat..lol..after eating i have to rush to take train go orchard meet zhen lin le..cos i meet him 3.30pm..but i 3.15 like this den take train sia..late le..lol…around 3.45pm like this den i reach..he already reach le..so we walk to lucky plaza…go all the way up n play pool..lol…reach there..my first reaction is.."wa…so many ppl…very pie sei de lei.." he say "wont la..jus play la..nobody will see de la…" lol…so we go book conern de table den start to play le lor…starting i very pei sei lei..but after a while ok le la…he very li hai lor…keep wining lor….but i also not tat bad la..cos he gt teach me ma..n also gt giv in to me lor…actually he gt free ball de..but he pretend not to see..lol…he hoh..very funny lor…he hint de ball can fly de…some more out of table lor…some more is not white ball lor..is colour de la..lol…we play very long sia…we play 2 hours lei…siao de…in middle i feel a bit sian la…but ok la..not bad la…today $15 plus sia..so x lor..he ask me pay him 5 can le..but i giv him 6..lol..thanks ar…after tat go find his fren a while den jiu go home le..cos i need to go home celebrate my mum birthday…so we go take train le…while waiting for train..my this GD FREN shoot me again lor..say i very short..lol…u very tall ar…lol..say me short…:P…on the train le still shoot me…haha…hai me keep lauging like siao like tat…den reach dhoby ghout he jiu alight le..cos he live at haugong ma..den i take to raffles den change lor….den reach home at around 7.30pm den go bath…jiu bath out den mum come back liao..den rushing sia..cos haven write the birthday card…so go write..but tat dad cook dinner ok le..so go eat first..den after tat jiu sing song n eat cake le lor…nth much also la….tml another busy day sia..no time to study le..haiz..

Happy birthday mummy!!!!

thanks my GD FREN…i am happy today….meet up next time ok..next time we go watch movie..lol..FREN FOREVER!!!!

today go play pool..think of him again..cos last time is we 2 go play de..n he teach me de…haiz….yesterday can’t sleep cos saw his nick…wonder wat is bothering him…..i think i no need to worry la..think some one will help him out ba….haiz…jus now when i on train alone..saw a couple…so evny them…. haiz….